MEET THE FOUNDER:
(Updated June 1st, 2006) I am currently living in USA with my American wife and American son (he's my biological son, he was born and registered in USA, he's 22 months old), but we are making plans to get back to Canada by 2010 so I can start my AIDS organization and get back on Canadian disability (my wife and son will become Canadian citizens and give up their American status if necessary). Why start my own AIDS organization? Well I have AIDS and I want to help others with HIV or AIDS too (help others meet other POZ, either for chat support to possible romantic relationships), plus I can get grants and stuff to make my sites better (hire some help, hire graphic design to overhaul looks, get better services, get better hardware, etc). Yes, I am a Canuck (born and raised in Ontario, Canada)!
My wife and I had a baby even though we both knew we had AIDS (our son does not have HIV or AIDS, he is HIV negative). I suffered many attacks online due to this choice, but we took all precautions that brought the chance of our baby catching HIV to less than one percent. We cannot help that nature makes us want to propagate offspring, why blame us?
I do not have a job (I am just a visitor to USA, I don't think I am entitled to get a job as then I would be stealing from Americans), our income relies on my wife's job and my internet earnings, this is a struggle and we both thank those who have helped in some way in the past :)
All seems peachy now, but a few years ago (late 90s and early 2000-2003) I was homeless and considering eating from garbage cans. Click HERE to see a rough chat room conversation with me and an anonymous guest about this. I am not near homelessness anymore though (not well off either, we still struggle to make ends meet).
WISHES: I wish I could afford the dentist estimates for dentures. I wish I had a Fujitsu touchscreen laptop (1ghz CPU, 512MB RAM, WIFI, LAN, CD/DVD Burner, USB) to use for working on sites. I wish I had a new web server with modern software (my old rack mount server is slow and bulky, Windows operating system is 7 years old, chat server application is about 7 years old too). I wish that someone rich (like Oprah) would make a huge donation to take care of current needs. I wish I could afford to go to school to become a counselor so I may counsel HIV+ friends I make in my chat rooms. I wish to make POZ friends online (no discrimination to your life styles or choices. I wish I had the cure for HIV, AIDS and all other diseases. I wish I did not get HIV from open heart surgery in the 80s. I wish a bright future for my son. I wish I had uncapped high speed internet, maybe a T3 line. I wish I could freeze time around me. I wish I had a car (my wife has a vehicle, but she takes it to work). I wish I could win the lottery. I wish all weapons would disappear. I wish Bill Gates would run for president. I wish you happiness. I wish I did not have bad credit due to me taking time off school when I found out I had HIV. Oops, I think my three wishes are used up...
LIKES: I like mp3 music (industrial, experimental noize, Rotterdam, trance, electronic, ambient, some heavy metal, some punk, dark rave/Goth, new age/meditation, Celtic, classical), girls (child expected in September 2004, sorry girls, I am taken now), working on my computers, downloading, watching movies (vampire, horror, comedies and action), bicycle riding, hiking in the country, gardening. I also like comedy/humor websites found on www.ComedySearchEngine.com.
DISLIKES: I do not like TV commercials, being poor, living with HIV, living without a car, having bad (bleeding) teeth, country music, discrimination, run a rounds (mental games), time wasters, hot weather caused by the green house effect,
HISTORY: I am an Electronics Engineer, PC Specialist/Web Master, Programmer and a Cabinet Maker (mostly dabble with PCs these days though). I built a few houses with my father when I was younger (everything from footings to the wiring). I was shipped from many aunts and uncles through ages of 4-10, even a little time with my father when I was 7. At 11 I got mercury poisoning and I was living with my grand parents. At 12 my father figured I was old enough to learn to build houses, so I was whisked away from my grandparents (whom I spent about half my childhood with to this point) and made to learn a trade. I would work until the AM hours with my father after school. At 13 I worked at the Ontario Farm Labour Pool (government employment program which I had lie and say I was 16) so I could buy my own school clothes, plus I had to work for father (for free) on the houses (which we lived in unfinished often) until about midnight. I also worked on farms in the summer of my 14th year to pay rent to my father and work for my father (for free) from when I got home from work or school to 1am in the morning. At 15 I moved away from home and I worked at a bar/pool hall fixing arcade games and I worked at Becker's (Milk & Convenience Store) to pay rent since I was now a man (I was living with the Becker's manager named Richard, but he kicked me out after a few unsuccessful attempts of sexual advances to me; a 15 year old that he got very drunk while getting drunk himself). I quit high school when I was 16 (what a stupid mistake) and moved away from town as my landlord (Richard) was spreading rumors about me, saying I was fired and other stuff like stealing accusations, whereas I just never showed up after he kicked me out of his house for not letting him touch my penis. At almost 16 I was living with a 28 year old woman (she thought I was 18) who let me use her car and had a real nice bachelor apartment for me (she took sexual advantage of me and taught me how to have intercourse, my heart would pound, my chest would hurt, a couple times I passed out). From 1987-1989 (age 16) I worked installing/programming satellite dishes, cable TV and telephone lines. In this 2 year span, I had the most stress in my life and I had a few strokes and and many panic attacks. During 1989 I had open heart surgery and "it" all went down hill after that, homelessness many times, hunger, malnutrition, etc. After that heart surgery I always felt like I had a flu or cold with minor to major headaches, night sweats, occasional fever like symptoms, diarrhea, sluggishness, etc. No energy to do my skills learned by my past. 1992 I started getting sores (like big boils, 2-3 at a time) on my buttocks and under arms. Doctors did a bunch of tests, but I refused an HIV test (I was scared of the truth) and the doctors were not able to diagnose my illness. 1995 I went back to school as I had found the woman of my dreams (not my actual wife, I met her in the chat rooms in 2003) a couple years before and we wanted to be responsible. 1996 I found out I have HIV 3 weeks before my upcoming marriage (I thought it was right thing to do to get tested thoroughly before staring a family, plus I had doctors suggest a test back in 1992). The doctor told me I had a year to live (I gave up school, job, everything for almost 2 years before I realized they were completly wrong). 1998 I create a very vague and ugly looking website I hosted on free hosting with many advertisements (no profit sharing from these greedy companies) that I hated. 1999-2001 I learn web (CGI, PHP, ASP, HTML, JavaScript) and desktop (Visual Basic and custom scripting for large scale software) programming, database serving (Oracle, SQL, MS Access) and administration, network admin (MCSE Certified, A++, etc), PC repair/upgrade, PC building (yes, from scratch, I build all my own computers), security, hardware/software trouble shooting, etc. Any information I could get my hands on the net and the library I would read and try out/practice. I also volunteered as a telecommunications network admin in 2000, doing other things such as custom software design (accounting to customer service intake for credit/debits that read live TOC records from the server), PBX security and programming, T1 and internet line managing/monitoring/trouble shooting, employee training, management, etc, etc, etc (I could run an ISP even). This was at DiTeck Telecom Inc. They gave me a computer with full software (Office to Photoshop!) for my year of dedication, plus a great lunch everyday (sometimes dinner and a few pool games after dinner/beers). 2001-now I fully dedicate myself to programming mostly HIV/AIDS websites and tools to help my fellow humans! Getting disability in 2001 also assures me I will be homeless much less, therefore I feel confident to run a web server of my own for HIV+ to rely on. 2002-2003 Met Tam in our chatrooms, got married! 2004 We have a beautiful baby boy who is not HIV positive like us! Thank goodness!
PROS: I can do anything with a PC computer. I am tall. I am comedic. I like to share and help others (doing all I can now), I do not drink often (maybe a couple drinks twice a year), I work hard on my projects at hand.
CONS: I get grumpy some days (only human, HIV can bring you down quite a bit). Financially crippled. I smoke about 5-10 cigarettes (trying Chantix medication to quit) a day.
HOBBIES: I am the founder, creator, server admin, network admin, chat server
operator, public relations rep, promotions department, etc. It is a lot of work
and I sometimes may be working, but I come back every 5-10 minutes to see what
was said. I have/own 12 HIV/AIDS web sites and 4 non HIV sites to manage. I
basically do the job of 5 people here! This network has been created by one
single person without any financial contributions! Hi, my name is Dave
Brown. I have been HIV+ for 11 years, which I got from open heart surgery in
1989 (I was 18 years old, 29 now) , and my only current source of income is
affiliate programs. I created everything from my 1
bedroom basement apartment (now living in a house with my wife, not enough room
for all my computer stuff though, but we manage). This network, and spreading HIV awareness has become my life's
passion, however I am finding it difficult to continue all this alone. I
used to work 70
hours or more every week (from 1998 to 2004, but health has caused me to not
work as much, plus I have a son now), I am the main financial contributor, and am responsible for
promotion, graphic design, web design, database applications, server (chat, mail, web,
database, FTP, domain names, application, etc) administrations, HTML coding, JavaScript
coding, network operations center (NOC), CGI programming, ASP programming, updating,
upgrading software and hardware, communications, server/backup maintenance, fixing
constant glitches, resetting domain names, public relations, chat rooms moderation (watch
for trouble makers and bashers plus chat with, and help direct new comers to information),
search engine editing, guest book moderation, dating service moderation, forum moderation,
banner creation, link checking, faxing, research, email responding, call center, system
analysis, accountant, etc...
I am an aggressive worker! In the last 2 years, I have had 2 days off (sick I was). I WORK
ABOUT 8-12 HOURS A DAY, seven days a week! I have over 16,000 web pages on my 12+ HIV/AIDS
web sites. There are over 16,000 files on my web server mostly made by me (graphics,
includes, databases, readme.txt, etc). I do not take holidays, travel or have fun (little
time off for illness). These are out of my price league as I spend all money on my sites!
Some as why I have made so many sites, why not just one or 2? Well, I am trying to offer
everything in one network, anything I can think to add will be added, until there is
nothing else to add. I think I may have bit off more than I can chew as there is so much
about HIV and so many ways I can create support and educational online tools.
I had learned many skills by working at a telecommunications company, I was in charge of
almost everything by the end of my run there (quit as HIV symptoms got in the way).
I also went to school for electronics engineering, but quit when I found out I was POZ and
now they will not let me back until I pay my loans). But majority of the web based
applications and designing I taught myself from books, and the internet, as I had the
extra time to kill while on disability. My job at the telecommunications place gave me a
computer and some software as a going away gift, this is what started my HIV/AIDS network
back in 1998 (although it took 2 years before I had anything decent on the internet).
I have calculated that if I had hired all the programmers and IT
technicians to get me this far, it would have cost me about $50,000+. To have
the HIV/AIDS Search Engine constructed would have cost $15,000 just for the
Database Administrator/programmer, plus I would still have needed to hire a web
designer and graphic designer. Since I defiantly could not afford all that on my
income, I learned how to program and do
everything involved with online services myself. It took me 2 years to learn everything, 3
years to gather all the computer parts and software.
There are so many more services I would like to set up, but I am finding that
keeping everything going is taking up all of my time, as I have outdated computers running
my servers and cheap, out of date, software that has many glitches. If I could afford
upgrades and a better internet connection, then I could easily continue to grow and spread
awareness. If I could afford to hire help, I am sure I could create the largest, and most
comprehensive HIV/AIDS Network EVER. The first step however is to register as a Not
For Profit Incorporated Organization in Canada or USA, so that I may try and raise funds through
charity.
I feel good about my network and I have many people come into my chat rooms telling
me what a good person I am to have set this up for those who need it. I am most
proud of my HIV/AIDS Search Engine (HASE) and I use it all the time myself. I
created my sites to give support for those infected with HIV/AIDS looking for friends,
dating, talk therapy or asking me and other people questions. I even get many HIV negative
people come in and ask about risks, symptoms and facts. I help everyone equally (any
sexual preference) in my chats, forums, emails, guest books, etc. Right now my sites are
not very established as I cannot afford advertising. But word of mouth and free search
engines are at least bringing about 50 new people to my chats a day now, but they leave as
I do not have many people hanging around to chat with so they leave or ask for an
established chat, so I send them to ones better than me knowing they will never return.
See my main projects here or see some of
my side (non HIV/AIDS) projects here. Not all
100% finished, but they are running and working.
I miss Canada so much (plus I wouldn't loose almost $30,000 a year anymore), I don't feel free in USA. I cannot just speak my mind in this country without someone trying to sue me or bash me. Everyone in USA is quick to threaten lawyers on BS stuff or threaten to turn you in to the FEDs as a terrorist (LOL). Even if I complain that a 500ML chocolate milk is $2.50 (for a half liter, this is an insane price, plus there were no prices marked to let you know the price until the guy rang it in, it was almost 3 bucks with tax) at a convenience store, they threaten to call the police because I am supposedly threatening or harassing them (you have no say in America), wasn't like I reenacted a scene from the movie "Falling Down" or anything crazy (didn't even raise my voice). I have hundreds of other samples, but I will save them for my autobiography... SO many benefits I have lost not being in Canada, even grant waiting for me for my POZ sites.