UNEDITED, excuse horrible spelling as this is just live chat whaile I am multi tasking on several other projects. [1:52pm] The new guy is back [1:53pm] Davey do you have your ears on [13:53] Welcome Back [13:53] i ahve it set up that any text typed here gets read by speech synthesis [1:54pm] neat [13:54] its annoying after a while [13:54] HeHe [13:54] u should use the advanced chat [1:54pm] how long have you been dealing with this? [13:54] its beter [13:54] more features [13:54] dealing with hiv or the chats and web sites? [1:55pm] HIV sorry I didnot clarify [1:56pm] Are you happy?? Did you say you got it in surgery?? [13:56] since 1996 i found out [13:56] Yes... [13:56] and yes [1:56pm] Yes to Happy or Surgery? [1:56pm] gottcha [13:57] Canada I am from Toronto* Canada [13:57] u? [1:57pm] How do you cope day to day? [13:57] hobbies [13:57] music [1:57pm] Baltimore [13:57] chatting [13:57] my hobbies are [13:57] My HIV Sites List @ http://www.hivaidssearch.com/menu.htm =) [13:57] thats what i do [13:57] all day long [13:58] making, editing, monitoring [1:58pm] for a living? [13:58] -> -#HIV-AIDS- I am the founder, creator, server admin, network admin, chat server operator, public relations rep, promotions deptment, etc. It is a lot of work and I sometimes may be working, but I come back every 5-10 minutes to see what was said. I have/own 12 HIV/AIDS web sites and 4 non HIV sites to manage. I basically do the job of 5 people here! [13:58] My main main websites menu is on http://www.hivaidssearch.com/list.htm [13:58] No... [13:58] no money [13:58] I am just a simple HIV+ guy who is living on disabilty (about 550/month US or 830/mnth CND) for past open heart surgery combined with HIV which I got from the surgery. 80% of my disability goes towards rent and groceries (leaves me about 40 dollars a week to survive on for travelling, computer/internet expenses, health/dental products, clothes, home office supplies, etc) which does not leave me with much. * Timer 1 activated [13:58] I do not make any money from my web sites, nor do I have a job. I am trying to start a business to make money, but it takes money to make it, so I am saving about 20 dollars a month. * Timer 1 halted [1:58pm] wow what do you do for dough [13:59] i just had to spend all my savings on dental work [1:59pm] unbelievable [13:59] so broke again [13:59] yeah [1:59pm] do you have a girl/boyfriend? [2:00pm] do you have a girl/boyfriend? [14:00] many think i am a big orgganization [14:00] i ahve a girlfriend [14:00] shes neg [14:00] so not very serious [14:00] but i believe she loves me [14:00] i am just expecting her to go one day [2:00pm] does she say so? [14:00] been a year and a half [14:00] yes she says so [14:00] the love thing [14:01] i love her [14:01] but not fully [2:01pm] Im married two kids [14:01] afraid to love her fully [14:01] cant understand why shes with me [14:01] she knew my status when she asked me out [2:01pm] ditto on the wife [14:02] i ahd decided to never bother again with a relationship until she came along [14:02] i was in bad shape then too [14:02] living in a hotel room [14:02] cuz i was almost homelss [14:02] i got disabilty a year ago [14:02] so have not been hoemeless since [14:04] now taht i can afford it, we live together [14:04] i pay 400 rent, 200 towards my web sites, domain names, and business account that allows me to run my own web server/chat server [14:05] 100 towards bills [2:05pm] thats great [14:05] leaves me with 100 to live and groceries per month [14:05] needless to say [14:05] i do 5-7 days without food each month [2:05pm] I was wondering if you tell everyone about your status? [14:05] but will not be homeless [14:05] Yes... [14:05] i do [14:05] right off the bat [14:06] i elarned that 40% of ppl will avoid u after [14:06] so why waste time on them [14:06] tell everyone right a way [14:06] but [14:06] u must b comfortable with it 1st [2:06pm] I got it cheating on my wife in a drunken stupor I am ashamed [14:06] sorry [14:06] least u did not give it to her [14:07] that wud make coping more dificult [14:07] does she know the truth? [14:07] not that it matters, but will make u feel better that she knows, [14:08] By the way... [14:08] I am not a doctor or counselor. [14:08] I make these sites for fun and to meet other POZ people! [14:08] -> [#HIV-AIDS] SOUND window [2:09pm] yes she knows the truth [2:09pm] I dont even know the truth I blacked out [2:09pm] Im very sad [14:10] alcohol blurss judgement, resposible for many infections [14:10] same with knock out drugs and illegal drugs [2:11pm] I may have been given a knock out drug [2:11pm] I really dont know what happened [2:12pm] how is your diet? [14:12] not so good lately [14:12] dental stuff out the ying yang [2:12pm] what can/ cant you eat with HIV [14:12] 2 root canals last week [2:12pm] Ouch [14:12] and 7 fillings [14:12] still got another root canal [14:13] and another 11 fillings [2:13pm] OOOOUUUUCCCCHHHH!!! [14:13] i ahd bad teeth [14:13] thanks god getting fixed [14:13] i cud not even kiss my gf anymore [2:13pm] so I see [14:13] bill of 3,000 bux [14:13] i had to take out a loan [2:13pm] what foods can we eat/ not eat [2:13pm] that sucks [14:14] yup, only loan i cud get, shuda gone towards a business [14:14] or my student loans [14:14] so now in debt 9 grand [14:14] argh [14:14] i ahve no money to apy them [14:14] surprised i got it [14:15] i ahve no choice but get bad credit now [2:15pm] teeth are important [14:15] my student loans already went bad [14:15] they want me in court [14:15] i avoid them [14:15] even moved to another town [14:15] but they found me thorhg my bank [14:16] i have no choice [14:16] my sites come b4 them [14:16] its my therapy [2:17pm] You should be very proud [14:18] tell that to the bank [14:18] HeHe [14:18] i can smile again though [14:18] i am so happy and 90% of the teeth pain is goine [14:18] i ahd some cavaties hurt for last 3 years [14:18] causing headaches galore [14:19] and infections occasinally [14:19] yeah i shud b proud [14:19] 2 years ago i was concidering weating out of a garbage can [14:19] never did though [14:20] butr iwas real hungry, i pan handled in stead [14:20] just as humiliating to me though [2:20pm] you have come a long way [14:21] Thank You :) [2:21pm] any thoughts on diet? [14:21] i only got my foirst computer about 2.5 years ago [14:21] eat well, like suggested by govt food guides [14:22] the 4 food groups [14:22] u remeber that? [14:22] ill see if i can find a canada one [14:23] http://www.hc-sc.gc.ca/hppb/nutrition/index.html [14:23] if u used the advanced chat, u cud just click on the links [2:24pm] how do I get to advanced chat [14:24] goto www.13km.com Example of things always stopping my goals: [20:26] why people wanna come back here [20:26] ? [20:26] only a 50% chance sites will even b up due to www.ISTOP.com lousy service [20:27] more likely they will b down than up [8:27pm] you are trying to do a good thing here don'* give up on us or you [20:27] i wasted 2 years of my life oin all this [8:27pm] not a waste [8:27pm] i know you are frustrated, i am too, cannot get half the time [20:27] well i have litterally dropped off all my friends so i cud work [20:27] i gave up everything i had [8:28pm] but it will get better at some point [20:28] i gave up owning a car [20:28] i gave up having a job [20:28] to buy a house [8:28pm] wow huge sacrifices [20:28] i gave up everything [8:28pm] thank you davey [8:28pm] if no one has told you that thanks [20:28] ;) [8:29pm] i didn'* know that you gave up so much